Heidi Anne's First of Many Suicide Awareness Walk

I haven't written in a while and it's for a good reason; CHAOS. Our lives have been like walking blindly on a tightrope without a net nor any direction.

Today was the first time we walked in a Suicide Awareness 5k. I predict many more awareness walks are in our future.  Heidi got a tee shirt and everyone got some snacks for the walk. It was very insightful for Heidi Anne. She saw at least 4,000 people hurt by someone's suicide or their attempts. I just want Heidi to know we support her and love her, come what may. 

Back in May, the unthinkable happened. Heidi Anne attempted to take her life. Charlie was able to stop her and rushed her to the ER. Even in the patient rooms, she was begging people to just let her die or to kill her. That warranted a week's stay at the Pediatric Mental Health unit. (Basically, she was committed). 

It was rough having her gone. On top of that, we were only allowed to visit her for just ONE hour at a predetermined time in the evening. Well, I couldn't visit often. Charlie was able to take lunches early and he would visit her. Her Grandparents even came up to see her.  

She's been in day treatment pretty much since her discharge from the hospital. Our day treatment is for youth (aged 5-11) it's basically a hospital. They have it set up like a school.  They have classes in the mornings and throughout the day there are individual and group therapy. I love her therapist (all of them are pretty neat).  While it's done wonders for her, however, funding is a major issue. We may end up pulling Heidi even if she hasn't completed the program. The thought makes me sick. But such is life.